So my friends and i watch this reality show, Ruby. It's about the weight loss journey of a woman who used to be 700 pounds. I myself have been trying to lose weight. I figure I better get buff and thin before forty or I'll forever become a fat chick. But it's like mission impossible with the metabolism of a rock. WTF!? I kinda play the theme song in my head every morning before I step on the scale. It just sucks, especially when trying to get back out there in/on the dating scene. How can I go anywhere and compete with the 20 something crowd. If I go where there are older people then I'm getting picked up by 60 year olds. No offense to older guys, but I'm only 39, no way in hell am I ready for anyone over 45. One thing that i notice though, if one guy finds me attractive and we get a little "busy" then all of the sudden men from my past also start acting kinda sexual around me. I don't get it. How do they have such radar? It's a weird universal twist. Quite frankly, it bugs the shit out of me because I'm not sure if I'm just acting sexier and they notice that or is it more that they get this sense that even though they don't want me, they don't want anyone else to have me either. Like the dear Charlotte on Sex and the City once said, "I'm sick of dating. Where is He already? I'm exhausted!"